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- Feb 6th, 2008
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I have recently been trying to move my blog away from the personal towards the educational.. ya know real value, blah blah blah
I always have about 10 posts half written that get tossed aside for the next great thought.
However, today, and for the last 5 days I am just going through the motions..
My friends.. I have lost my direction, my purpose, my taste, my drive..
I am a rowboat in the middle of the ocean. I have oars, but I HAVE LOST MY COMPASS…
My business partner, who appeared out of the middle of nowhere, dove in with 2 feet, and said I trust you, I believe in you, You have talent, and this is going to be amazing.. oh and how much do you need to live on until it happens… well he was tragically killed in a car accident outside Los Angeles. He was a 30 yr. old beautiful and generous without limits, father, husband, son, dear friend to many, and a True Rock Star at affiliate marketing.
Meir ‘Mikey’ Volk … Thank you.
I never saw ‘The Secret’ .. but read back to my next internet millionaire quest and TELL me if you didnt see it happen. Yes I was too busy working towards it to write as much as I should have (as much as YOU would have like to see rather). This stuff is out of control..
oh, and If you think I am writing about money, just turn around and leave right now… the only money I wanted to earn was to show him gratitude for his faith in me.
I am on my way to the states tonight for 3 weeks. My main consideration to NOT go would be the inevitable absenses from my computer. Just traveling is a day off each way, forget the obligatory Target and Walmart expiditions.. (even internet millionaires shop there). Now I turn on my computer and feel the bile rising in my throat.. yeh TMI.. sorry.
So what now?
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Avrohom Leventhal (February 6th, 2008 at 10:53 pm )
I was very moved by your eulogy for Meir! He was an amazing guy and i feel fortunate to have known him although only for a year. A mutual friend introduced us.
Meir “Mikey” found out that I run a charity organization. Not only did he give monetary donations..he always wanted to know what he could do to help.
If I didn’t send him email updates he would email me to find out what was going on.
It is very rare that I heard so many eulogies without having some exaggerating. Everything said about Meir was to the point!He will be sorely missed.
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Shany Teller (February 18th, 2008 at 6:53 pm )
Your blog brought me to tears as it made me realize what an impact Meir had on so many ppl. I grew up with Meir being a big part of my family, he was like an older brother to me. He gave me inspiration throughout my life helping me to become the person i am today. He took care of all of us, he was an extremely strong and giving person. Not a day goes by now where i don’t pause and sit in bewilderment at the fact that he is no longer here. He was larger than life and we are all hurting terriblym for his loss.
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Andrea (February 21st, 2008 at 7:55 am )
Avrohom and Shany,
There have been no less than 300 visits to this site JUST searching for Meir or Mikey.. so yes he had a very strong impact on a lot of people.. mostly those who are keeping quiet.
Thank YOU so much for sharing your stories. I am sure it will mean a LOT to his family.
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George (February 27th, 2008 at 5:45 pm )
Andrea,
I am so sorry to hear that you lost such a good friend…
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Andrea (March 7th, 2008 at 6:22 am )
George,
Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to me that you come by here and comment!
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George (March 7th, 2008 at 10:35 pm )
You are welcome. I kind of miss the stomper chats from days long past
I guess I should get on Skype again. I just never seem to find the time…
Hope all is well with you!
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Me (April 23rd, 2008 at 1:57 am )
It seems like a death can have such a profound impact, but only the death of a man who had a profound impact on so many in his life. And what a profound life.
I often feel like people have forgotten. We’ve all moved on in our lives, but do you recall those first few days when you could barely breathe? When you woke up screaming in the middle of the night? When you felt like nothing in this world could ever be right again? When you banged your head against the wall weeping and weeping..uncontrollably.. Well I still do that. Each day that passes is another day without Meir in this world. Each day is a day further from the time he breathed and laughed and shared. But each day is a day closer to him too.
I don’t know why I’m writing, I need a forum to express myself, I want to share my thoughts with whoever will read them. I’m still in denial, I haven’t passed through that phase yet, I can’t accept that he’s gone. I still hold out hope that this is all a nightmare. But a part of me knows it’s real. A part of me knows that this world couldn’t contain the fire that was Meir.
I remember the first night I met him, my eyes followed him around the room, I couldn’t let him out of my sight, he seemed to envelop the entire room.
Never will there exist a person like him, lucky are we who got to know him, so lucky that we shared in that brief yet brilliant and full life.
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jen (April 25th, 2008 at 12:39 am )
I miss him too. I’ve been in a daze since it happened. He was one of my best friends.
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Andrea (May 2nd, 2008 at 11:02 am )
Thank you for sharing your feelings here. I hope more people will realize that they can do so anonymously, and lets just say that from my site statistics, I KNOW your pain is shared with many others.
It is hard to actually respond to what you wrote (I am talking to the individual who calls him/herself ME).. since you expressed the situation so accurately, that all I can say is Yes, it is obvious you knew Meir. Larger than life and the Real Deal combined into one human being.
I really still cant believe it.
Jen, thanks for your comments and stopping by.
Day by Day..
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Me (May 4th, 2008 at 2:34 pm )
Thank you, Andrea. I saw what you wrote about Meir those first painful days, how you lost your direction, your drive, how it’s hard to breathe. And I knew that you were real, that you felt all the pain of every person who could feel.
I’m sitting at work now in the chair I was in when I got the phone call that Friday, the day the news hit, the day that will be forever etched in the most painful part of my existence. I fell to the floor, I couldn’t move for what seemed like forever, I can’t recall those moments now without feeling that sheer panic and disbelief. The pain and the misery followed later, that long first weekend, that terrible first week, them the months that have followed.
I pass the last place I saw him alive on a weekly basis and I wish- this is so futile and even juvenile- but I wish I had grabbed him and held him, changed the course of his existence, one little action..
Sometimes I feel like I can’t enjoy life, how can I when he’s not here to get down with, shoot the shit, watch that twinkle in his devilish eyes. But I know he’s looking down on all of us and wanting us to live, play, laugh and enjoy, even embrace the pain when it hits.
Andrea, Jen, all others, my heart is with each person that feels the pain each day, that loves Meir Volk for exactly who he was.
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